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The sheer melancholia in this amazes me. I am entranced and addicted. Thanks, Eliza. I owe you big time.
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‘Das Feuerordal’ by Rome
“Swear never to be gentle / To always be unkind” - This album has been on repeat for a few weeks. I adore this gravid, purple, militaristic melancholy.
True facts: Eliza listens to some absolutely boss music. I’ve got this on repeat now myself.
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I thought long and hard before deciding to reblog this. Because as a general rule this is an art/political outrage blog, meaning people who’re following me are most probably doing so for the art/political outrage, and I should try to keep personal stuff and mental health stuff out of it.
But fuck it. This message needs to get out to people, and while my audience is small, they could still do with seeing it and passing it on.
When I say “this message”, I don’t actually mean the above. Because the above is certainly a lovely sentiment. It is also, however, missing the point quite badly. None of that stuff is relevant to most suicidal people, for the simple fact that the vast majority of suicidal people are suicidal due to depression and similar mental health issues. If such were as easily dealt with as using the above sentiment to try and evoke thoughts of a life with beauty and joy, then those mental health problems would be mere emotions, easily controlled ones, and not the horrific problems they really are.
As a general rule things like depression are caused by chemical imbalance in the brain. Neurochemistry is such an incredible clusterfuck it’s a wonder that the human body ever gets it right. For some people, it doesn’t, and thus do mental health problems occur. Neurochemical imbalance can’t be corrected by positive thinking, consideration of opportunities that would be missed, or anything like that. It can be treated - not cured, but treated - through a combination of careful therapy, drug treatments, and a strong support network of friends and loved ones.
Earlier today I suffered an incredibly triggering event for suicidal thoughts. And so I’m in a position to answer the question asked in the image above. Why do I wish to be dead? Because I suffer. I have suffered long and hard through my life due to this neurochemical imbalance, and there is no end in sight for such suffering as long as I live. Death is the more attractive option than continuing to live like this. Often I wish that nobody and nothing loved me, simply that I might allow my life to end without feeling guilty.
(For anyone who is wondering: yes, there is a reason why I am writing this and not attempting to off myself. It has nothing to do with the treatments and therapies mentioned above. Those are things that would help me greatly, but which I simply cannot afford. In my case it is much more simple: I made a promise a long time ago. And I am not a person who breaks my promises, no matter what keeping them may cost me. Thus am I still alive.)
Here’s a cartoonish little blog someone did a while back, that might help y’all with the understanding of how depression tends to work:
http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.ca/2013/05/depression-part-two.html
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Municipal Waste, The Hi-Fi Sydney - 16.06.13
‘Twas a good show.
Thought the dude in the top right was Jon Schaffer for a moment. Confusion.
Pity the Hi-Fi is such a meh venue.
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yo who else wants to join me in a neverending scream party
just screaming all day every day because you’ve run out of constructive and healthy ways to express your emotion
I’m game, when do we start?
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On a textual level, Willow is a lesbian because she identifies as a lesbian.
But if we get meta, there’s a bi-erasure going on that Willow had to be one or the other when Joss could have written her as bi or pan. Bisexual characters get very little favorable depictions in the media. Usually, bisexual characters fall under the Depraved Bisexual trope. Either that, or they are overly promiscuous, which many writers choose to show as dangerous or shameful behavior (see: Brittany from Glee and 13 from House).
Bi-erasure is a big deal, and though Willow identifies as a lesbian in-universe, the fact she’s a fictional construct means we should be analyzing her sexuality’s erasure by the creators.
I think the reason given was that the writers wanted to keep her with female love interests after Tara’s death because they didn’t want Willow’s liking of men to “fix” her or make it seem like Tara was a phase. HOWEVER, they could have easily said Willow was bi or pan but had a preference toward women. Maybe even that she preferred women because straight men don’t take her sexuality seriously.
No.
I mean, yes, they could have chosen to make her bisexual or pansexual. But they didn’t. She behaves as a lesbian and she identifies as a lesbian. Ergo she’s a lesbian. End of story. I don’t know why so many people object to this…
It bothered me when I watched it that Willow seemed to switch from exclusive attraction to males (Oz and Xander) to exclusive attraction to females (Tara, Kennedy, etc.), probably partially because I’ve been bisexual pretty much from the moment I developed a sexual orientation at all so I couldn’t relate. However now that I understand sexuality better I see nothing wrong with her character developing the way it did.
For some people your sexuality is something that you’re just aware of and stays the same for basically your whole life. For other people, sexual orientation is more fluid or their sexuality develops as they grow older or as they grow older they come to realize or accept that their sexual orientation wasn’t what they originally assumed. All are really normal.So Willow identifies as a lesbian and it is clear that she is exclusively attracted to females so labeling her as anything but a lesbian seems inaccurate to her character.
It’s also offensive as shit. Can you imagine doing that to a person who actually exists? “Oh, I don’t like that you’re bisexual, so you’re heterosexual now. End of.” Fucking no. You’d get slapped, and rightfully so.
As far as Willow originally appearing to be attracted to male characters goes… not as if that never happens to real people either. And hell, we weren’t directly inside her head, for all we know she was feigning it to some extent due to not understanding/being ashamed of her homosexuality, which, again, are things that real people actually do.
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On a textual level, Willow is a lesbian because she identifies as a lesbian.
But if we get meta, there’s a bi-erasure going on that Willow had to be one or the other when Joss could have written her as bi or pan. Bisexual characters get very little favorable depictions in the media. Usually, bisexual characters fall under the Depraved Bisexual trope. Either that, or they are overly promiscuous, which many writers choose to show as dangerous or shameful behavior (see: Brittany from Glee and 13 from House).
Bi-erasure is a big deal, and though Willow identifies as a lesbian in-universe, the fact she’s a fictional construct means we should be analyzing her sexuality’s erasure by the creators.
I think the reason given was that the writers wanted to keep her with female love interests after Tara’s death because they didn’t want Willow’s liking of men to “fix” her or make it seem like Tara was a phase. HOWEVER, they could have easily said Willow was bi or pan but had a preference toward women. Maybe even that she preferred women because straight men don’t take her sexuality seriously.
No.
I mean, yes, they could have chosen to make her bisexual or pansexual. But they didn’t. She behaves as a lesbian and she identifies as a lesbian. Ergo she’s a lesbian. End of story. I don’t know why so many people object to this…
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So I was talking to my mom about all the wild rumours surrounding the potential Dark Tower movie. When I mentioned that Russell Crowe’s name keeps coming for the role of Roland, we both agreed that he was not a very good choise. She thought that, barring Clint Eastwood, Sam Elliott or Jeff Bridges would do just fine.
Yeah, Russell Crowe would be awful. I guess I could see Jeff Bridges working… he’d need some serious makeup, though. He isn’t nearly heavily scarred enough.
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by Garth Brooks
Correction: Something worth both living and dying for
It is easy to find something worth dying for. Something worth living for… that’s the tricky part.
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TRIGGER WARNING: SUICIDE, ANTI-PSYCHIATRY BULLSHIT
Unfortunately true.
It’s a bit unfair to compare something life threatening to something not immediately life threatening.
Also, psychiatric care is really just a nice way of saying, “mind-altering drugs”.
I’m writing my own response to this, because honestly I am absolutely SICK of this photo set and its ignorant comments and have a lot of things to say that haven’t already been covered.
Hello there, my name is Stiv, I’m almost 21 years old, and I have been mentally ill as far back as my conscious memory goes. I have Borderline Personality Disorder, OCD, and dysthymia as official diagnoses. I also might have some other issues my therapist hasn’t disclosed to me because BPD patients sometimes have an issue where any new diagnosis becomes their new identity, and I totally understand their fears.
Do you want to know the main theory as to why I am mentally ill?Physical illness.
The day before my fourth birthday, in upstate new york, in the year 1996, I got bit by a tick and by the end of the night of my birthday, I had a full-blown fever, bullseye rash, and aches and chills.
That’s right, I had lyme disease.
This might sound unrelated, but there are new studies coming to the surface regarding young children who had lyme disease - many of them have various neurological and mental illness symptoms, and BPD is particularly common among people who had lyme disease as small children. One of my best friends also had lyme, and she has BPD traits. Her little sister had it too and she has full blown BPD at age 15.The bacteria that causes lyme disease infects the spinal cord and nervous system in children much quicker than it does in adults. It’s thought to cause neurological damage.
And yes, at that age, lyme disease almost killed me.
But years later, my BPD almost killed me more than once. I wanted to die.
What really, really baffles me about everything is, this is just one example of many, MANY instances of a physical illness, life-threatening or no, becoming a mental illness. Many older people with chronic pain become depressed, anxious, or develop substance abuse issues. Hell, why do you fucking THINK people with cancer get therapeutic counseling?!
“NOT IMMEDIATELY LIFE THREATENING” also pisses me off, because nobody who has been in a room with a person who has just attempted suicide and can come out and say that shit.
Suicide is a HUGE risk in BPD. 10% of BPD patients eventually successfully commit suicide.
That’s REALLY high
and do you fucks know why there is shitty quality of care for mentally ill people?
BECAUSE OF SHIT LIKE THIS
People spread myths about mental illness like “they’re not life threatening” and these myths are one of the biggest contributors to stigma.
As a result of stigma, people won’t admit they’re mentally ill, people won’t admit their relative is mentally ill, or their friend, and because of stigma, very little hospital funding actually goes into helping people on psychiatric inpatient and outpatient units. Our medications are ridiculously expensive ($700 for Abilify without insurance) and not well-researched and many of the newer ones could be dangerous, as they were just shuffled onto the market without extensive years of study.
Many psychiatrists in the United States are not psychiatrists because they wanted to help the mentally ill, but because they were failing out of med school. There’s actually a shortage of people who actually give a fuck in the systems that are supposed to be helping us.I hope you’re all happy with yourselves because this is an attitude that legitimately kills people.
i am genuinely amazed at people who think mental illness isn’t life threatening. y’all can go fuck yourselves. locked psych wards exist for a reason, dipshits
and yr “mind altering drugs” ARE ACTUALLY REALLY NECESSARY FOR SOME OF US TO CONTINUE LIVING
THX
Can I get an amen?
“Also, psychiatric care is really just a nice way of saying, “mind-altering drugs”.”
^^^No shit, Sherlock. This is like saying “anticoagulant is really just a nice way of saying ‘blood-altering drugs.’” NO, really!? If there’s something wrong with your body’s blood-clotting then yeah, you need to alter how the blood clots. And if there’s something wrong with how the mind operates, yeah you need to alter the mind.
The mind is a chemical cocktail that is so fucking messy and insane it has no real right to function at all. In some people, it doesn’t operate how it should.
HOW THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU’D TREAT THAT OTHER THAN WITH MIND-ALTERING DRUGS
MENTAL ILLNESS IS OFTEN (though not always) CAUSED BY CHEMICAL IMBALANCE IN THE BRAIN, OBVIOUSLY IN ORDER TO TREAT THAT YOU NEED TO CORRECT THE IMBALANCE.
Holy goddamn am I angry when I see this kind of shit. “Not immediately life-threatening”, huh? And people wonder why I don’t talk about my depression at all…
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